Hot Tub Time Machine

I watched Hot Tub Time Machine yesterday.  OMG this movie is funny.  It is NSFW and if you don't like raunchy humor, you won't like it.  Otherwise, you will love it.  :o)

The premise of the movie is 4 guys whose lives really are in the toilet go on a vacation together and when they get in the hot tub, it takes them back to 1986.  They quickly realize they cannot change anything because of the The Butterfly Effect (Infinifilm Edition) .  But they just as quickly realize they want to have some fun and make some changes. They make a few changes, one of them stays behind in 1986, and they all live happily ever after.

I started wondering if I would want to make changes if I could go back.  And if I did make changes, would it completely change my life today.  Probably so.  I am buried under a mountain of student financial aid.  It's a 2nd mortgage.  I didn't get a lot out of my education, however, I did get a wonderful wife out of college.  If I changed the school and went to a community college, then the debt would be minimal.  But I would not have met B and we would not have a beautiful daughter.  I could have stayed with some earlier jobs and gone up in the company, but I would not have had the experience of preaching.  I could have stayed a preacher in the Methodist church and worked and plodded through it, but then I would not be at my current church which is so much better than any of the past churches we have been members of.

Life right now is not completely easy.  We really don't make it month to month and Peter gets robbed a lot to pay Paul.  But we have shelter that is air conditioned.  We have transportation. We have our health.  I have a wife who accepts all of me and I don't want to change any of the past and lose the present.

Blessings.

-Candi

Couples Time

I am a pastor at heart so I will post scriptures and other stuff related.  Also, I will write post about relationships as I have before about communication.  Well here I go again. 
First to the GG.  Your CD is watching your every reaction to figure out exactly what you think about the elephant in the room.  She is used to hiding this 7 layers down where no one can see her and now she is out.  Without meaning to, your facial expression or wording in a single sentence will destroy 2 days of good vibes between you.
Don't take this as me bashing on you.  I'm not.  It is what it is.  Just realize that you will probably have to supress more than you first realized.
To the CD.  Get the chip off your shoulder and BE with your GG.  Stop being a selfish prick (no pun intended) and realize they want to be a part of your lives (get it, HA).  Yes there are GGs that don't want to have anything to do with your fem side.  i'm not talking to or about them.  For those GGs who are accepting in whatever little or big way, give them props.  They are stepping out just as much as you are. 
If you want more specific advise, B and I are both more than happy to try and help. 

Blessings

-Candi

Tradng Parts part 2

So the last post asked medical science "Y U NO LET US TRADE PARTS".  There are many times we have said that B should have been a guy and (obviously) I should have been the girl.  Though I can tell you that I don't think either of us want to go full time the other way. 

After posting that funny pic, I started wondering how we could change parts.  And then I realized that we would have to be robots to do that.  Think about it.  The pussy is not an external part so to change it out, we would have to have a whole section.  Think about a naked Barbie (the doll not your friend).  The whole part between hips would need to come out.  Well if the guy was going to take that, his would need to come out too.
If you think a little more about it, that would need to happen anyway.  We could have some Doc Johnson strap-on attachments for the penis but that's not why you want it.  Those who want the penis, want it to be part of them.  Those who want the pussy want it to be part of them.  And I'm sure they want it for sexual fun too.  To get the sensory experience, it would need to be a true part of you.

Far from just the transgender scene, changing out parts (easily) would be awesome for medicine.  Cancerous parts can be swapped out.  We can just print a new part if you need it.  If you could trade parts on demand, would you do it (hell yes).   From interacting, most crossdressers would do this in a heartbeat.  It won't be in our lifetime, but maybe sometime in the future.

-Candi

Trade Parts

Sometimes a pictures is worth a thousand words.  B and I feel like this sometimes.

http://www.quickmeme.com/meme/35rc32/

Man Discovers He Is A Woman

I read this story today about a man who went into the hospital for kidney stones and found out he was a woman.  Well, at least that's what the title of the story said.  All over the web that was the title of the story.  However, you have to read the story to get the deeper information.

Steve found out he had female internal organs and a male penis.  He is intersex because he has both.  He has become an advocate for same sex marriages and intergender people.  Stevie (who found out 5 years ago) now lives as Stevie.  I'm sure she got her name and gender changed on her license.  She is still married and her 6 children and wife support her. 



Just a couple things about this story.  The title of "he found out he was a woman".  That's of course just a titillating title to get you to click on the link.  He actually found out he was intersex.  But in our black and white society, we don't want to think about a really small percentage on the edge of the pie graph.  The other issue (well not really an issue) is what do people against homosexuality or even same sex marriage have to say about this??

You can't throw out the X or Y chromosomes argument because she is BOTH sexes from birth.  You can't throw out the procreation argument, because she has 6 children of her own.  Although the story infers it, she did not make the transition from Steve to Stevie overnight and did not make it lightly.

I think we as a society are moving, but maybe we need to get off the blacktop road with white stripes and move into that gray mud.  It's more difficult to move through, but also more exciting.

-Candi 

Communication

I have preached on communication in the past.  Poor communication is the one thing that will screw a relationship up faster than anything else.  It doesn't matter if you are a crossdresser or not.  Open honest communication is needed in a thriving relationship. This is probably even more true for a crossdresser.

Open communication regarding our crossdressing is very very difficult, and here's why.  We have spent so many years hiding this part of us for fear of retribution/retaliation/rejection/any other re- word you can think of, that showing this part of our lives is difficult.  And even if we have an accepting significant other (SO), we are still afraid of letting it all out that we will scare them away (or repulse them in fact). 


On our way back home from vacation, B and I had a good short discussion.  Her friend was not having a good day with her husband.  It was one of those "coming near the end of the line" talks.  She needed to vent.  I asked B if she ever complained about me like that.  She said no, that it was a rarity to complain at all about me and never like that.  It was good to hear.

Our discussion went further.  She said likes Candi but sees me obsessing with everything CD.  I asked her to explain.  She stated that when I am on the computer, almost all the time it's sites regarding crossdressing.  I made a comment that when at work I search work related sites and when at home this is what I search.  It wasn't a good thorough answer and I needed to think about it.  So I did.

I realized that I read a lot of CD forums/blogs/sites for a couple reasons.  1.  I am still trying to figure out who I am completely.  I don't mean I want to figure out if I will transition or not.  There is no way I am going there.  Reading other people's experiences helps me understand who Candi is and how she can be part of my (our) life.  2.  My online habit is my "Candi time".  I just don't have the option to go out right now.  With our daughter and work and lack of money, I can't get out of the house.  So I underdress pretty much every day.  I wear a nightie to bed every night (god I missed that on our vacation).  And when I come home from work at 2am, I put on something feminine and unwind. 

I have not had makeup on since our anniversary.  Missing that.  I did shave my legs last night.  I love that smooth feeling and am so glad that B enjoys it too. I will get time out again soon.  Until then, I will interact with others on crossdressers.com forum and other sites and just be me at home.

Blessings,

-Candi

Beach Body

We are on vacation this week at the beach.  It has been a wonderful relaxing time.  Well most of it was relaxing.  Wells Fargo screwed up my money situation and that changed things around.  No Worries.  I get good at pulling things out of my ass when needed.
I was surprised we didn't spend the whole time on the beach.  B and I both like to people watch.  Our daughter just wants to "go".

We went horseback riding one day.  That was so much fun.  Although I am a crossdresser, I am full guy and they two girls that were leading us were hot, no doubt. 

 I told B I wish I had a body like that.  Actually I said "skinny bitches" first.  She corrected me and said they were just skinny girls because we were that skinny when we were that age (half my age now since I turn 40 next month). 

I'm generalizing here, but the difference between crossdressing men and non-crossdressing men.  non-CD men will look at these girls and their first thought is getting into their pants.  CD men look at these girls and their first thought is "I wish I could fit in those pants". 

Obviously if I didn't sit at a desk all day,  could get a body closer to that.  Now they were over 6 ft tall like me, but if I lost 25 pounds, that would make a difference. I was working out on a daily basis and lost some weight, but got stuck between 215-220.  I stopped for a few weeks and nothing changed.  If I watch what I eat, I pretty much stay here. 

On another note, B and I saw this Oh So Hot dress in one of the stores here.  They had an XL and she was going to let me buy it.  It was XL in the US and 14 in the AUS/UK. I pulled out my handy smartphone and checked the conversion.  That would be size 12 in the US.  Even if the site was wrong and that was a size 14 in the US, it was not going to work.  Skinny Bitches.  I have a size 18 denim skirt that just barely slides up so I know that dress would not have worked.  Maybe it would have given me the incentive to lose the extra weight. 

Here is your encouragement.  You can lose the weight.  You don't have to though.  There is clothing for us girls that are a little bigger.  I know you want to look good (meaning hot) though.  Lose 15 pounds and you will feel so much better about yourself.  Confidence makes the girl, not the clothes.

-Candi