Sunday, March 25, 2012

Body Hair

I'm shaving all my body hair for our anniversary weekend.  Our kid will be out of town for Saturday and most of Sunday so I took off Saturday and plan to spend the day having fun around here (if you know what I mean and I know you do).

As I said in a previous post, we are planning on a private photo shoot (just the two of us with my new wonderful camera).  We are going to take pictures dressed and dressed and undressed.  I want the pictures to be the best possible.  Actually I want the whole weekend to be the best possible.  But, to make the pictures better, I'm shaving all my hair off.

Ok.  Not ALL my hair.  My head will still have hair.  And my pubic will be trimmed close like I like it.  But I am shaving my legs and chest.  Ok, I'm not doing my arms either.  I don't see the need.  So I started today. 

I trimmed my pubic like normal then got really close the further back I went and to the sides.  Now I remember why I don't shave that area.  It's going to grow back stubbly.  Ouch!?!

I've always had a good amount of chest hair.  Some of it is gray now. Boo.  My best friend used to joke about my cross because it went top to bottom and then side to side at my breast.  Well....No More.  It is all gone.  I should have done a before and after picture.  I didn't think of that until half way through.  It wouldn't have been the same.  So I skipped the pics. 

It is so weird seeing me hairless from the waist up.  I think it looks younger (but when you get to my face, not so much).  I might do my legs tonight, not sure.  If I do them tonight, I know I will have to shave again before next weekend.  I don't mind, just need to make a decision.  Maybe I will stay hairless.  Maybe not. 

I know I am SO SO SO looking forward to this weekend.  It's going to be fabulous.  On another note, it's getting warmer here so it will be interesting to see how I change my dressing.  Winter time is a great time to dress because hose or tights are common.  Now shorts and tank top is norm.  We shall see.

Hugs.

-Candi

Dancing with a man

Rodney Carrington is just freaking hilarious.  He had a sitcom for 2 years aroudn 2005 called (obviously) Rodney.  Sor sure, he is profane, so some might be offended by his comedy.  HOWEVER, this video is great. 

Check it out.   -Candi

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Metrosexual

One of the girls (older lady) at work is very observant.  If you want to get "clocked" or "read" out in public as a crossdresser, I think she could pick you out of a crowd of 100.  When she looks at me, I can see the wheels turning.  It's kind of fun.

As a group we were talking about one of the guys on our team that has around 100 pairs of shoes (all guy shoes)  and is always stylish.  He is young single and a player.  This girl labeled him a "metrosexual" which really fit.  Then she labeled me a metrosexual also.  Well, ok.

From Wikipedia, a metrosexual is a neologism (I'm not even going to look that one up) derived from metropolitan and heterosexual coined in 1994 describing a man who spends a lot of time and money shopping for his appearance.

David Beckham and wife

I'm not going to argue and say, "Well you are close.  I'm a crossdresser.".  Um, NO. 

But I like the Urban Dictionary definition of metrosexual. 



You might be "metrosexual" if: 

1. You just can't walk past a Banana Republic store without making a purchase. 

2. You own 20 pairs of shoes, half a dozen pairs of sunglasses, just as many watches and you carry a man-purse. 

3. You see a stylist instead of a barber, because barbers don't do highlights. 

4. You can make her lamb shanks and risotto for dinner and Eggs Benedict for breakfast... all from scratch. 

5. You only wear Calvin Klein boxer-briefs. 

6. You shave more than just your face. You also exfoliate and moisturize. 

7. You would never, ever own a pickup truck. 

8. You can't imagine a day without hair styling products. 

9. You'd rather drink wine than beer... but you'll find out what estate and vintage first. 

10. Despite being flattered (even proud) that gay guys hit on you, you still find the thought of actually getting intimate with another man truly repulsive.
"Some people think he's gay, but he's actually metrosexual."

Let me see if I can change these just a little to fit the crossdresser. 

You might be a crossdresser if:

1. You can't walk past a woman's department without browsing through.
2. You own more than 20 pairs of shoes (many of them high heels, 10 pairs of sun glasses (some of them those ugly bug eye ones), and you carry a woman purse.
3. You see a stylist not a barber because stylist do highlights, chat with you about girl stuff, can get you a style that will go either male or female, will work on your wig.
4. You can make her lamb chops at night and eggs benedict in the morning all in a maid's outfit and heels (I'm good for this except for the heels)
5. You only wear panties with some sort of lace and never tighty-whities.
6. You shave more than your face. You moisturize, exfoliate, and long to get laser treatments.
7. You have more pictures of you dressed up than your wife dressed up.
8. You can't imagine a day without your wig.
9. You would rather drink wine than beer because of how it looks with your outfit.
10. Despite being flattered (even proud) that a guy hits on you, the thought of actually getting intimate with another man makes you sick.  But then in your fantasies, you actually love having a man in bed.
 

If you can say yes to more than 6 of these, you are a crossdresser.  Don't fight it.  That's just the way it is.  Not a bad thing.  Embrace it and love it girl. 

-Candi

What do I wear??!!??

There was a post on the crossdressers.com forum where one girl asked what she should wear.  She had a few skirts and blouses and was stuck like a writer staring at a blank page. 
Personally, from her list of items, I didn't see a problem.  But she did, and it was her clothes, so that is that.  There are lots of sites that help you "build a 10 piece wardrobe" or tell you what's in fashion. But Ultra is different. http://weareultra.com. In 2009 they started a blog about design and innovation.  But nothing was really changing.  So they decided to make a real difference. 

They are taking the concept of sustainability to a new level.  The video is pretty cool.  The 10 piece outfit is designed to give you something to wear EVERY DAY OF THE YEAR.  How cool is that.  Especially for a part-time crossdresser such as myself, this is golden. 

From looking at the model on the site, they need to go up a couple (ok a lot) of sizes to get to me, but I really like the concept.  Now I only need to find some shoes.

-Candi

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Outing Adventure

B and I went to a meetup group on Sunday to Sue Ellen's club in Dallas.  They were having a Battle of the Bands. 

There were 6 girls there including 2 GGs (one of them my wonderful wife).  It was a lot of fun since this was the 1st time We had been to Sue Ellen's.  Heck, this is the 1st time we had gone to this area at all.  The bands we heard were good.  We didn't stay too late because B had to work Monday morning. 

Of course in every group there has to be one person who "is too much".  Too much alcohol, too much touchiness, too much anger, etc.  One of the girls was just not all there, plus I think she started drinking before getting to the club.  What was unfortunate was this was the 2nd outing for the other GG and her partner.  She obviously had some concerns with crossdressing, but was being supportive.  Our "too much" friend was making everyone a little uncomfortable.  The other couple ended up leaving extra early.  B gave the wife her card and asked her to call.  I hope she does.  We ended up going to JRs with Jackie to sit in a quiet place and talk.  I can tell Jackie would be a gracious host in her house also.

B and I left not too long after that since she had to work the next morning.  We stopped to eat at Hunky's across the street and then headed home.  B drove since I needed to be like Superman and make a change back into boy mode.  I don't know about you, but eye liner must be made of glue.  That stuff does not want to come off.

It was a great night all around.  And I realized I was completely comfortable as me; Candi.  I wasn't a guy in a dress, but a person walking with my sweet bride and having some fun.  When I was walking, I was...just walking.  I wasn't focused on my "girly walk".  When I was talking, I just talked.  Same thing.  It's interesting.

I should have gotten some pics to post here.  I will ask Jackie if I can steal one of her's. 

Blessings

-Candi

Update: here is a pic. That's what happens to a wig after a long night:

Monday, March 5, 2012

Here is an awesome video I found through another CDs site (mycdlife.com).  Would this be opposites attract or the same attracts??  -Candi

Bisexuality

There is an interesting conversation going on in one of the forums that I frequent.  One girl asked if crossdressers were bisexual.  Well there are 14 pages of answers so far and I'm sure there are more to come. 
But wait, there's more.  Oxyclean gets out....sorry. Wrong story line.

As I figure out where I fit in Candi's life and where Candi fits in my life, it brings up so many more questions.  And maybe like Christianity, each turn will bring it's own question and you may not find the answer.  One girl mentioned how crossdressers have a totally different personality when dressed.  They are a different person.  I don't think that totally applies to me.  I look and feel like a different person, but I know who I am.  Maybe it's like that boy who is a runway model for boys and girls clothes.  He doesn't even see sexuality.  He just is.

B asked me today if I wanted to go full-time Candi.  That's a big old negarooney.  I love Candi and my time as her, but full time is not a desire.  I would like to see more of her, but that will come. 

Back to this forum post though.  There were bisexual girls, some just using the moniker and some who are always attracted to men and women.  I really don't like labels, but will jump into this one...stay with me.  This ride is going to get hairy. 

I can only speak for myself and sprinkle in some of the ideas I read on the forum.  I am a man.  I am attracted to women.  I love having sex with woman (well just one woman since I am married and would NEVER look elsewhere).  When I dress, I am still attracted to women.  I do act differently, but my attraction is the same.  Maybe that makes me a lesbian with a dick.  Maybe that still makes me a man. 

Fantasies are another story though and I think this is why some girls were identifying as bi-curious.  When dressed, I will fantasize about being fucked by a man and some good sweaty sex.  A man that will take control and persue me as the girl that Candi is.  That is a good fantasy.  B and I will have fantasies of group sex with us two girls and two or a few more guys getting it on and filling us up. 

Here is the thing about labels though....When I am dressed, I am Candi (let's agree with that point for illustration purposes).  If dressed and I had sex with man, I would be straight and I have sex with a woman then I am a lesbian (or bisexual if I have sex with both when I am dressed).  If I fantasize when dressed, does that make me bi or just curious?  If I fantasize when in guy mode, does that make me bi?  See how labels can be bad.  I really like what one girl put.  She said she was monogomous, and that's all that matters.  Sounds really good to me.

Last point.  There were some girls that said they were "pansexual" meaning they were attracted to all facets of sexuality and not just male/female.  This is really interesting because it moves away from genetals (because how else would we define sex when naked) and goes deeper. 

On the pansexual thing, does that mean this person could be attracted to another person just as an attraction and not what's between their legs.  That's really a deep thought.  We are a VERY sexualized society.  All this time we have been talking about attraction as in sex, but attraction can be so much more.  It's kind of like defining "love".  Noun no verb.  Same when describing he love of Christ.  He died for me when he didn't have to but because he wanted to. 

So many labels and so much wrong with them.  As for me, I love my wife and am attracted to her.  As to everybody else, whatever makes you happy as long as you are not self destructing or hurting someone else.

-Candi

Saturday, March 3, 2012

I got a new toy

No not that kind of toy.  Get your head out of the bedroom.  I got a new camera.  All of us have wanted a new camera.  Something more than the small point and shoot plain cameras.  I would love to get a DSLR one, but those START at $500.  I just could not justify that.

B had this plan for our anniversary for a full makeup session for both of us, then to get pictures (some even risque - get your head in the bedroom).  We the makeup session is booked and ready to go.  When we started looking for photographers, we realized just how much that was going to cost.  On the low end it would be $300.  On the high end, over $1000. 

So, I combined 2 things on the wish list and am making it happen. I booked a room at a local B&B for our anniversary.  Instead of a professional photographer, I bought a new camera.  It's the Kodak EasyShare Z990 12 MP Digital Camera Camera.  It does look like a DSLR and has SO MANY features.  Best part is it was only $175.  We like Kodak.  The other one I was looking at was $4 more and this one was specifically mentioned as a better camera by many people. 

Now I just have to learn how to use many of the features, teach those to the family when I finally let go of the camera, and get some pics posted.  Wish me luck.

Blessings,

-Candi